I can actually hear what people are telling me now. I'm very glad I can.

Otherwise I'm still a bit depressed. Something isn't as it should be, my teacher didn't sound to hopeful when she spoke to me. I guess I'm afraid 'cause she don't seem to believe in me. I must do my article without being stressed or feeling ashamed, maybe then I can think positively. I hope. I hate doing nothing, that's when I get depressed, when I don't do anything and don't have much time to be lonely either. But what I need is work, otherwise I cannot live.

Life is depressing.